A+ to you Kila for facing reality and admitting to Hashem and everyone that everything is run by Hashem and has a wake up message directly from Hashem with nothing in the world happening by coincidence.
May everyone learn from you and go in your way. In other words if WE ALL faced reality and admitted to Hashems direct wake up calls for serious teshuva or faced reality to a financial or health issue a person has then life would be so much better and happier with so much less problems since all issues would be faced and worked on to be solved immediately
May Mashiach come ASAP and may we all be in Yerushalyim very soon