It’s interesting that you are asking this question now.
There is no end to the suffering in this world. I see families where one person died of a heart attack, another had cancer and other has major emotional issues. I see families where one parent died young and less than a year later, the other parent died in a freak accident. I see families who suffer with poverty and with debilitating medical conditions.
We are not here for this world. The closer you are to God, the more you realize that this world cannot be the purpose of creation. The more you tune in, the more you realize that you have a soul and that this world is just a mirage.
I learned (I don’t have a source so please verify with rabbis you trust) that our souls agreed to be in the body that we were given. When we were with God and had perfect clarity as to what we needed to accomplish, we agreed to our life. Now we are on Earth and we are clouded by physicality. The seeming paradox is that we have a spiritual mission but we aren’t in a spiritual reality that would allow us to clearly recognize how to achieve it.
I think the real question is, “why would God create a being that is so compromised by his human understanding of reality, and not a being that can intensely sense spirituality?” That is a similar question to what the Angels asked when they told God that He would’ve been better off not creating humans with our desires for physicality.
God doesn’t want us to know the answer to this question. If we knew the answer then this world wouldn’t be what it is. God created the world and He created the rules. Our choice is only how we deal with the reality that we were given.
I struggle with what the point was in all the pogroms for thousands of years if none of them brought Mashiach. If we needed thousands of years of perfection after all the exiles and persecution then it seems that it didn’t bring us to where we needed to get to as a result.
Which leads me to my final point. Do you remember that when Israel was accused of bombing the hospital, Israel announced that they MAY release proof that they didn’t do it? They ultimately released a phone recording of Islamic Jihad and Hamas. I believe that the reason they were hesitant to release that proof is because they didn’t want the other side to know how deeply they are entrenched in their systems. I’m sure that by revealing those conversations, they knew that those groups would make changes to their methods of communication which was a tremendous risk.
If an army is hesitant to reveal its intel then how much more so God, who is the master plan of the entire universe. So many people have opinions about what the army should or shouldn’t do. We know nothing-nothing-nothing about what information the army has, so whom are we to have an opinion. How much more so God?
So beautiful, thank you for the chizuk.