Reply To: A Hashkafa Question I have no one to ask

First: only a honest and joyful mitzvot is a REAL mizvot. Everything robotlike does not mean anything.
Second: jealousy is a conequence from חוה, its only an physical appereance, that shows that this a loveless spot in you body.
In Thora these things went up to G-d through sacrifice as a unpleasant odour. But now there priest and sacrifices do not exist. Well, well.