BS”D
Teenager:
Have you finished high school yet? Sem? If not then now is the perfect time for you to experience another community. Go away if you can, so long as you know you will not run into trouble away from your family.
Something tells me you are spending time with some of the marginal or disillusioned elements of your community and they are turning you off, or that you are looking in the sewer of the community and finding the sewer rats.
There are a handful of sewer rats in every community, and sometimes they do occupy positions of power or respect, often because their betters are not searching for kovod, or have no time, or because of some fluke in the community structure.
I know because that is what happened to me years ago. I stayed in a truly RICO (Racketeer Influenced and Corrupt Organizations) run community, the worst of the worst, even though I had alternatives available as close as a 25 minute walk away, and in the end I went off.
I knew better, because I knew I believed in Hashem and His Torah. I also knew full well that these people were not representative of anything but their own collective yetzer horo, and my bad decision cost me a lot of lost opportunities in every way imaginable.