teen- I did explain why [albeit concisely since the mods are not interested in printed a book here]you should believe in Judaism–it could be it will take time for your mind to process, but you have to want it in order for any explanation to work. You’re in an amazing asking mode now, and if you want true extensive answers the CR is not the place you’re going to get it. You’ll get our attention and respect, but not the full answers you deserve.
A point I’d like to make about Christianity vs. Judaism : Chr. doctrine states that unless you believe in everything they believe in-then you’re doomed to hell. Judaism is the only religion on the planet (1 of about 15,000) that believes that you can be even a non-Jew and still receive a portion in the world to come. What this ultimately is saying, and it takes a very mature mind to integrate the depth of this thinking, is that G-d is the One that gave us everything we believe in, and we are not haughty enough to claim our religion as man made and extending a belief system as the Christians have.
One last very important point—for a person to say that they are (not) willing to believe in something, they have to have honestly, and extensively learned that which they are (not) willing to believe. Since you are a yid, you owe it to yourself to do that learning of Judaism and research, understand it maturely and then discuss those ideas with a competent Torah teacher for you to honestly come to peace of mind. You sound like an honest person who is sincerely looking for the truth. Don’t sell yourself short.
In order for this to be a truly effective exchange of ideas it will be worth your while to read the following:
1)Permission to Believe: by Lawrence Kellemen
2)Beyond a Reasonable Doubt: feldheim publishers
3)If You Were G-d: by Aryeh Kaplan
4)The Torah Lifestyle: by B Shaffier
…….if you really want to know.