Reply To: Erasing Aveiros/T’shuva

These posts are a tremendous help. Thank you all for taking the time to contribute. I sincerely appreciate it.

Interestingly, I just started reading Garden of Emuna- I hope it helps.

(Obviously, the scenario I described is about me)

I need to clarify: every time the image comes up, I feel guilty yet try to convince myself that it’s OVER. It’s not working. Plus, I do not have control over when it is going to pop into my head. I understand it’s the yetzer hara; however I still can not predict his actions. I can divert my thoughts, but this keeps recurring over and over again. The Y”H will drive me crazy one of these days.

One big lesson: an image/action/aveira.. and your memory- don’t mess!! My biggest fear is having this image in my head CHAS V’SHALOM on my yom hachupah. And that is the horrific thought that comes to mind every time I get this image. Believe me, nothing is worth heartache such as this.

Thanks again- each post was extremely enlightening and thoughtful.