moish- you have no confidence in your potential to improve. Why?
why do you give up so quickly?
and- why won’t you read that thread? You don’t have to read every post- but there is some amazing, PRACTICAL advice there. Why don’t you want to help yourself?
I’ve come to really admire your sweet nature and ability to see wrong from right. What’s holding you back? Your neshama is screaming out and you’re doing your utmost to shut it up.
I honestly see so much good in you. Why don’t you want to even attempt to try and change a tiny drop? What are your fears?
Feel free to share
PS- a negative outlook is the first thing you need to get rid of. Who’s feeding that to you?
(I’m really sorry if I came across harsh. I’m so pained; I really care.)