Moish- I believe in you! You can do what your heart desires! Ok, I am sounding like your mother here, but that is not my intention. I just want to say that I really believe that if you set your heart out to do something, you can do it. I am so proud that you did not carry your phone with you!
An Idea: Try saying modeh ani in the morning when you wake up- it really sets your day off right! Know that Hashem looks out for you (see- you found the CR when you had nothing to do) and you are not alone in your struggles!