I can’t imagine anything sweeter and more fulfilling, not in this world nor the next, than seeing his smile and hearing him laugh when we play. That’s when I connected with G-d on His day.
BS”D
Again, you are not worshiping Hashem. You are making the tofel into the ikar, and worshiping yourself and your own leisure.
Considering your comments regarding “nothing to hear in shul” when the chazzan is not up to your high standards, I just about mourn for you, as it is clear you are very far away, further even than many OTD kids who are just going through a permanent or temporary realization that they are too spiritual or creative to fit into a rigid community. Their rebellion is one of seeking Hashem, and they will find Him, albeit via a derech that can have some pitfalls if they are not properly guided. Your krumkeit is just seeking that which is comfortable for yourself on the edges of the dalet amois of Torah.