Firstly, I’m highly impressed you’ve tried so many times. Not that I expect less, it’s just that failure is a very difficult and discouraging thing. Like it says: sheva yipol TZADIK v’kum. So you are a lamed vavnik…
If you think you’re sick of dealing with it, I’ll give you something to be more sick of: my advice to you is to daven!!!!!!
is anyone counting how many times this advise was repeated in the CR?
well- it’s obviously the key to everything!
You really should be asking Hashem for his assistance- constantly keep at it.
There’s no possible way we can go it alone