mominisrael, i agree with mepal that if you realize its affecting your life then you should stop. but i think that you really need to understand why its wrong to read nonjewish books. the thing that starts to go wrong is when the behavior or way of thinking of the book starts becoming like a regular to you. by jewish books, almost all the time there is a lesson to learn. but the nonjewish books are just for “fun”.
btw, are you really mominisrael? or are you just sketching to paint a picture and then tell us your dilema? if its true then please dont hold a grudge against me, if its not true then please explain because this sounds a little sneaky. i hope that hashem will help you realize what is good to read or not. btw, for example when you go to shoprite and such, do you have an urge to go look at magazines? its the same type of thing. if you realize that its a wrong thing to do which will affect you negatively then please dont do it. have a ksiva vchasima tovah a gut gebenched yar. please respond to explain to me.