Moish, the yetzer hara works in interesting ways. You will hear things such as:
“it is too hard”
“who are you trying to fool”
“you will only end up disappointing people”
This is only the yetzer hara talking. I give you a bracha that you should be able to defeat this horrible creature. And may Hashem guide you in making the correct decision here. We care about you and we daven for you (as well as the other CR members).