PBC –
The “racism” charge is easily deflected by the simple fact that Jews come from all ethnic backgrounds! I look distinctly eastern european, while my Syrian friends look downright Italian. And Yemenite Yidden look arabic.
What makes us unique is our commitment to mesorah and halacha. Again, all these questions and doubts are (at least to me) indicitive of someone who is searching for answers. I have zero interest in pro sports, so I will not engage someone in a debate about who is a better team, player, stats, ect.
But I am highly intrested in 5 other topics and will discuss / debate them at lenght when given the opportunity.
When all is said and done, the one who stands the most to gain from all these questions is YOU. Beausae you will do the research, you will gain the insights needed to fully explain your position, and you will have a better grasp of avodas hashem than you did when you started the process.
One final note: There is a story (not sure who, but I beleive it was someone who went on to becoming one of our gedolim of the late 1800s) of a young rov who decided to try and make the world a better place. After a few days, he saw that the world is too much to undertake right away, so he lowered his sights, and decided to work on his country instead. A few days later, he realized that this was still too large a project to handle, so he scaled back to working on his city alone.
And on down the line, his neighbood, his shul, his family, until he finally decided to be content on working on improving himself.
And you know what? As soon as he improved himself, his family improved, his shul improved, his neighborhood, his city and finally the whole world started to look better.
OK, maybe that’s something that only gedolim can accomplish. But you get the idea. Do you best and you will see / generate results!