estherh
My heart goes out to you, i can tell you one thing i heard that left a strong impression on me, a rosh yeshiva was speaking about ppl that have kids with severe irreversible medical conditions, and he said when someone has a child like that it’s like g-d gave him a slap on the back and said i have faith in you, you can pass this test. in other words it’s the greatest compliment from the greatest person (or thing) around.
i think we can apply it to you as well, hashem as faith in your believe and knows you have the strength to get through this!