Esterh-
i hope everything goes well with the next biopsy. Waiting for results is always so hard .
One thing that helped me while I was struggling was to go on an online support group specific to the illness (such as mdjunction.com). although it is not a Jewish group, i found it a huge help to be able to chat with people going through the same thing. Even though you aren’t going to be able to talk chizuk, you can still vent and hear what others are going through.
As someone else suggested, tapes and CD’s or torahanytime.com or naaleh are a huge help when stuck in bed and can give a lot of chizuk if you listen to the right people.
If you are interested, please ask the mods for my email and maybe we can talk. I have went through my share of health issues and am very familiar with a lot of what you are going through.
Stopping smoking is one of my big fights also and I alwaysa try to talk ppl against it. Having severe asthma when I was younger, I ended up in the hospital from someone smoking at work (which was illegal but that’s another story. )
Hatzlacha.