Sacrilege
Don’t misunderstand me, in regular life I’m a happy upbeat person with a sense of humor, I just take my Judaism VERY seriously. I had to work hard to get to where I am.
Like I said in this thread and other threads, I used to watch movies and tv shows, listen to non Jewish music, read non Jewish books, follow sports and go to games…I changed my life around.
Once I started changing my sense of honesty and yashrus told me I can’t go half way. I can’t live a lie. I realized that there was a whole list of things I used to do that at the time I thought “I need to do it” “can’t live without it” “there’s no way I can stop…” its all baloney excuses.
Change is hard and humans seek the path of least resistance. There’s a beautiful saying “you can’t get anywhere if you don’t get moving.”
Ok I’m going to drop the bomb, when I was doing all the wrong things I wasn’t matzliach in my personal endeavors and I wasn’t happy. I thought “Hashem hates me!” Once I started changing I realized that the reality was “I hated Hashem” and thats why nothing went my way.
If you truly let Hashem into your life He will give you so much Siyata Dishmaya you’ll be overwhelmed by how different your life is.
(The rest will be in my upcoming book IYH…just kidding lol)