ItcheSrulik-
I had the same experience. To put it bluntly, I found the Rambam (the Moreh, Chelek, 8 Perakim, Letters, Mada…) much more – I want to say intellectually honest but I’ll be politically correct and say – much more intellectually stimulating than much of the current literature. The only problem is that much of his hashkafah is not accepted today, at least not where I live. It’s not that I really care, but it becomes a problem when, e.g., a kid has a question, and I have to worry that if I answer him in a way that I think makes most sense and is actually mefurash in the Rambam, his father will come banging on my door because I am indoctrinating his kid with hashkafos inconsistent with the ‘mesorah.’ Which is fine, I get that. It’s just frustrating not to be able to help people. And the worst is when someone asks me to ‘prove’ a concept to someone with ‘questions,’ and I have to argue with the guy that this ‘concept’ has no proof and in fact I don’t see any need to command a belief in it. Alright, that’s my rant for today. Now everyone can pounce on me for being a kofer.