eclipse,
you never fail to amaze me!! you are a source of inspiration to me constantly!!
i have to tell you one thing though!
i had a time where my father was going through something and noone knew. none of the kids granparents…!
i somehow found out by mistake and it was very hard for me since i knew that i can’t share it with anyone!
at that point i came to the conclusion that hashem only sends these hardships to the ones he loves most so that it should serve as a wake up call to us! he loves us so dearly that he wants us to be near him and daven to him to always think about him!
this really comforted me during that time!!
i hope it will comfort you too!
and i am sure that hashem is sitting up there and looking at you with loving eyes and watching over you!!
may you see many yeshuas soon!!