Health – if you’re still reading, you sound sooo much like my brother (don’t worry, i know you’re not).
don’t worry – we still like and respect you.
i can see by your posts that you’ve really been working on yourself, and i truly respect that.
being human is hard.
don’t let being in the medical field be your sole mode for self-esteem; you are valuable as a human being.
don’t give up; keep trying and growing.
Good luck. come back soon.