Basket:
Let me try to get through to you one last time. If you’re not going to go through the Torah way, well then you might as well give me the money. Doing all the mitzvohs ‘as you deem fit to understand’ does not make it the right way. To quote the Ohr HaCHayim HaKadosh (a great Rabbi, maybe you’ll “agree” with him), one who does mitzvohs not the way chazal instituted, ???? ??? ???. If you’re not doing mitzvohs the right way, learning at this stage through a competent Rabbi, you’ve not even started being a baal tshuva. Sorry. The beginning of becoming frum is to dump the “greatest mind ever developed” into the garbage. And opening our ears and hearts to our real Torah leaders.
B’li Neder, this is the last time I’m going to respond to you on this. (until I do)