Always runs with scizzors fast…
I see you are very torn. You want to be one of the crowd, just like everybody else, accepted by the community. But you are feel different than the others because you love art and have different ideas and a different upbringing.
My advice to you is to be careful in who you express your thoughts to. You can’t expect all FFB’s in your community to understand your view and where you are coming from. If you make comments about their chassidic ways and minhagim and question them, then you are the one who is setting yourself apart, and she or he will respond to that. Be careful who you share your viewpoint with, and that they will be able to understand you, and you won’t feel so different.
I am hoping that after poor Leiby’s death we will continue to have more achdus in the Jewish community. It’s not us and them. We are all Jews and we are all in this world together.