It looks like you are suffering from Anxiety (although I may be wrong). Been there, done that. We all have stressful and anxiety creating moments in our lives. All you need, is learn some coping skills. I was cured by listening to Lucinda Bassett’s program (they’re 15 CDs) called The Midwest Center. You can go to http://www.stresscenter.com to find out more info.
My brain just can’t deal
Try taking a break. Take a hot bath, read a good book, listen to music, or just take some time for yourself and do nothing.
I have nothing to look forward too except my friends who are all in the same boat as me.
Misery loves company. Try hanging out with positive good-natured friends. Also, please do look for something to look forward to. I usually treat myself to writing or listening to music.
Hatzlacha Rabba! Please keep us posted on your progress.