Sorry you have to go through this, it’s definitely painful
-There are support groups exactly for those you describe, some over the phone.
-Make sure you have consistent downtime to refresh yourself
-Remember that all this suffering in olam hazeh clears the way for a great spot in olam haba
-Remember that much suffering in this world is easier than a moment of suffering in the next
-Your energy is saved by accepting the situation as is rather than fighting it. Use your energy to help fight the illness.
-It’s a madrega to reach that one blesses Hashem for the bad as well as the good
-Remember to thank for your own health and for the myriad things that ARE going well
-Hashem is WITH us in the pain (IMO anochi b’tzaar)and is holding your hand and giving you the strength to cope
-Hashem always wants the best for us, somehow this is best for the neshama at this moment
-Have soft music playing in the background if possible
-Read Garden of Emunah or Garden of Gratitude
Been there, done that, so I really feel for you in the situation.
If you’d like to share the Heb. name, we can split the Tehillim.
Hatzlacha, and keep up your strength!