soliek – I have always felt that way about those words. I know it will take a while to change me, so I ask Hashem to speak for me while I am still learning what to say.
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One particularly bad, hard year I was asked to run a new camp program. I decided I couldn’t handle it. I told the person standing next to me that I dread making this call to the director. I called the director and said “no” but the word “Yes” came out. I KNOW my lips formed “NO”. Either way, there is where I met my husband (after 6 years of looking) Hashem does good ventriloquism when we need it/let Him.