Oomis: I understand this, though I want to edit what you said. It’s clear in the Nefesh Hachayim that Hashem never says no. Sometimes he just said “not now”. Every Teffilah is answered in some way and at some time. I’m okay with my life as is. I really am. I resigned myself to being unhappy a long time ago and feel that I am a good and productive person regardless. Yes, there are many times where Ahavas Hashem is an issue. That’s my Nisayon. Everyone has their’s. I’m okay with mine.
