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6 & 7 – no, the only effect he has on me is that I found out just this past Shabbos what he is still up to, and well, put it this way, I don’t envy his oilam haba. Then I found out where his major donor stands and I don’t envy his oilam hazeh either.
2 & 3 – no, I prefer this to NY or EY. If I had felt this way in NY I’d have just run away to another state, changed my name and that would be it. Whatever the problems here, there are many advantages as well. As bad as this is, NY was more of a fishbowl with every storekeeper asking me who I am, where I am from, finding out I am unmarried etc. Here I get everything except what is sold on shul grounds from an anonymous supermarket where a non-Jewish cashier scans my order, takes my card, hello, goodbye. No one looks in my cart, no one looks over my shoulder.
4 & 5 – all ask the rov sites I have tried have referred me to – a live rov LOL!
1 – whatever happens, happens. But I will not be forced into marriage. The pool of shidduchim for me is small and not appealing and it is not as if I can’t live alone. If it happens, it happens. If I truly feel happier alone, I will probably look to work in places where I can only be alone, and well, it will be unusual if I stay frum and alone but so be it.