big deal: From the conversations I had with her, I don’t think this was any means an escape for her, although she wants to portray it as such to gain sympathy, I think that this was her goal from the get go.
What Id like to know is what made her so despise the frum life, especially if according to you this was long in the making? She had an opportunity to live a totally different, independent life, away from her relatives who she didnt like and she could have been more modern, instead of totally not frum. I think her husband would not have fought her on that. Some say she might not have known theres a middle path. I cant believe that she didnt see that there is, once she was living in Monsey. Monsey has all kinds. Why was even the middle path despicable to her?
Some frum people who are in big trouble and daven again and again to Hashem for salvation, with all their heart and instead of things improving, they get worse, sometimes lose faith. Was that part of what made her go away fron frumkeit, at some point? Sometime in the past she was genuinely frum from the heart. She wasnt born anti-frum.
At the end of the day, she felt that frumkeit sickens her, to any degree, obviously. She didnt do it because she knew shed be able to make money writing her book. She had no way to know that in advance.
She very much despises frumkeit, in any shape or form. Why?