hey ilovetheholyland,
There’s really no need AT ALL to feel stupid, after all diabetes is exactly what you were afraid of! About the “dealing with more” i think that no matter what a person is given to “deal” with in life, he is also given the EXACT amount of tools he needs to be able to (or not to!) deal with it, and therefore there can be no such thing as “more” or “less” … that’s just my take!
For me, i have to watch my food / weight for the diabetes control and it really is tough, esp. so being fussy! So yes, i do understand, in my own little way, where you’re coming from in this matter .. I really appreciate your kind words and keeping me in prayers, it does go both ways!
Keep going strong, you are really amazing 😉 May hashem bless us with the RIGHT one in the RIGHT time and may that be soon enough!