Reply To: from otd to back on, ask away

@yeshivish. I could’ve written your post, as I too came from the same exact type modern orthodox background , went completely otd for a number of years, and came back much more Frum than b4, b”H. In my case, I went off partly because I became friendly with people who were experimenting with the other lifestyle, and mostly because I was emotionally neglected at home and was searching for happiness and attention in all the wrong places. What I’m still trying to figure out, so many years later, is why I stayed in the other lifestyle for so long since it really didn’t bring me any happiness or peace of mind, only guilt and pain…