I just heard a nice story that might help you:
There was a father with his daughter and son on a boat, the boat turned over and they were all stuck in the ocean. The father took a child in each of his arms and just swam, they did not sea land so they just kept swimming. At a point the father realized there was no way he would be able to make it with both of his children because he would just faint and they would all die, he knew the halacha was that he has to save his ons so he told his daughter he would have to leave her behind. He left her, and she kept yelling, screaming and crying. The father could not deal hearing his child in such pain so he went back and picked her up again, made it to shore, and they all fainted because they had no energy left. When they woke up the daughter asked her father how he did that. He said I could not handle hearing your pains I just had to get you.
Hashem carries all our sins, at point he feels like he cant hold all our avayros anymore, but if we daven, we cry out to help, scream, we need HaShems help, he will not be able to hear his children in such pain so he will come to our aid. Hope this helps