To PuhLease and others in this type of situation:
While I can’t imagine the pain and suffering you must have gone through, and which must have helped drive you to make the decision you did, as I believe you indicated earlier, I still do not understand how you can be “at peace” where you are if that involves any sort of intentional neglect of halacha.
How does one who was religious and understands laws of this system, even if deprived of its beauty, consider one’s self to legitimately be “not religious any more” as if such a thing were possible?
I understand if a teen or even an adult rebels out of pain, CH”V, and I do sympathize even if I believe there has to be a better way than dropping one’s faith practices. But even in this case they still understand that their abandonment of mitzvos is simply their rebellion, not an alternate valid path. Please explain your thoughts on this matter.
While nobody is perfect, regardless of observance label, there is, of course, a difference between sinning while understanding the wrongness of the sin versus sinning and not caring.
You wrote that you submitted a post on Shabbos and it was not accepted. But surely you know that this is halachicly forbidden, not some overbearing hashkafa that is of no meaning to you. So how can you be at peace with doing something you know clearly is forbidden? Please explain, if you don’t mind.
Finally, regardless of the Jews in your prior circle, surely there is at least the possibility that there are observant Jews who do not do anything you find morally objectionable. Besides that, you’re free to observe without this behavior you dislike. So why go beyond that and throw away religious observance when you could observe “morally” rather than completely discard? Please explain.
Regarding your statement “but to use religion to justify terrible behavior, makes Jews as bad as the Moslems who blow people up in the name of Allah”, this is absolutely wrong, and I think your own biases are radically skewing your perspective.
No public Jewish Orthodox figure would dare to use religion to “justify terrible behavior”. They might rationalize that what they do is not so bad, or otherwise permitted. Or else, if you are referring to molesters, then they might wrongly allow their compassion on the alleged molester to overcome what they should instead be doing.
But for you to compare that, even if they are wrong and/or biased and issue a terribly incorrect halachic ruling, again, to compare that to these savages and their barbarity of indiscriminate homicide bombing, is wrong. Period.
May Hashem redeem us all and bring us to the time when Hashem’s Truth is revealed for all people to see.