Reply To: I need some perspective

Justhavingfun and yhm: thank you! I feel so much better after reading your posts. BH I wouldn’t trade staying home with my baby for anything. I don’t currently have any friends staying home with theirs but I am looking for some girls to maybe start a mommy and me type thing once or twice a week. I like all of your ideas, and yes I think besides the financial strain I am just drained due to lack of sleep and quiet etc.

When I said my husband doesn’t want to talk about it.. We end up talking about it all the time but he doesn’t not want to discuss it with them because they make him feel like garbage. There were some issues with Yeshiva in israel and in the US and basically he ended up paying for it himself because they were not on board ( after shana aleph though). He does not like asking them for things because I think then he thinks ( and I guess knows from his childhood) that it will be held over him and not in a gracious way. I guess everyone is right I need to just open my eyes and see the beautiful things Hashem has given me..and I do see them. This has helped though, having “strangers” to talk to and lend an ear. I don’t discuss financial issues with friends as I find it embarrassing, thanks for your time everyone.