shopping613 I think it’s a good thing for you to take a break and try to wean off of the coffeeroom.
Cyberbullying is a very real thing and it has played a part in suicides in the past. People can get very involved in their online relationships and the words others say can really hit a sensitive spot. It’s especially problematic since no one knows the real identity of posters and the anonymity of the internet allows people to shed responsibility – they don’t get to see the actual impact of what they do(say). At the end of the day, their “caring” for you is kind of theoretical because they really have no clue who you are.
I happened to like the few posts of yours that I read but at the end of the day that shouldn’t really matter to you- because who am i anyway? but more importantly because you have your worth as a person regardless of whether or not some people on the internet approve of what you write. You are special and you are important just because Hashem created you. You are a whole world.
I think it’s really important that you find someone in the real world to help you. Is there anyone that you know that seems caring- that you can tell them a little about your loneliness and ask them if there is any way to help. I don’t know where you live, but in Yerushalayim and probably for sure Bet Shemesh too there are organizations full of caring people that try to help teens who are not adjusting well to Israel.