Assaf, I’m not sure what “logical” arguments you have gone through to come to the conclusion that it is difficult to believe in religion, since I would guess that you’re somewhere between 20 and 25 (closer to 20 would be my guess), but when I was growing up, being fed secular education my whole life, I also had difficulty believing in the first page of the Torah, since “logically” how could I believe in it since I did not believe that Hashem created the world, so if page 1 was false, logically the rest was also. I felt that it was a good argument and carried on with my life without compunction.
Many messengers were sent to me through different means at a particular point in my life, when I was almost 30, which sent me to a Discovery seminar being held in my area. I felt that I was going to gain nothing and was really going just to satisfy these various messengers without any intention of doing anything different afterwards.
I was seriously wrong on many counts. Listening to the lecturers at Discovery gave me such insight into the “illogic” of my arguments and presented me with such evidence to the opposite(and not just fancy “codes” in the Torah – which for me were just icing on the cake), that I was simply not able to logically maintain a secular life anymore and made my way to becoming shomer mitzvot.
Only people who have spent time answering logical questions that people like yourself ask are the people for you to turn to if you want to confirm your “logical” arguments. Maybe you should ask them some of them before you permanently alter the relationship you so value with your parents. Obviously for some reason they decided that a religious life is the best thing for themselves and wanted to bring their children up as such. What do you think, that they were brainwashed or they are simply not thinking through things? If you respect them, then you most probably feel that they are intelligent people, and it is their due that you should fully investigate the basis for their lifestyle before you reject it. Discovery has seminars routinely in the Old City in Jerusalem. If you have a furlough from the army, maybe you should look into it. It’s only a day or two, aren’t your parents worth that much of your time, considering how much of their time they have given you?