oomis1105.
The really worst memory I have is when I was accused of cheating on a Navi test in 7th grade, by my very beloved principal, who taught us for that one class that year. I really looked up to this man, both as a menahel and as a wonderful teacher. Having him accuse me hurt to the core . . . but also because of who it was who was accusing me and showing how disappointed he was in me.
…The way I felt that day, wdas the worst thing that ever happened to me…
While reading your story I felt it had a powerful Mussar lesson.
The next time one is faced with a Nisoyan (C “V), keep in mind that one day we will stand before the one who loves us the most, our father in heaven, and he will say, in a tear-chocked voice, “My child, how could you? You know how much you pained me?” And we will fell so terrible! Not for the punishment we will get but for hurting our father who we love so dearly. It will “hurt to the core”!
And the same is true for every Mitzvah and even the smallest good deed that we do, we will be so excited when Hashem will exclaim “WOW! Look what you did for me! I am so proud!” THAT will be our greatest reward!
Thanks for the Mussar, oomis!