You, know. I recently learned a very helpful and practically helpful tool in helping myself with depressive emotionas and ANGER.
I thought of them as children. We wouldn’t judge or penalize a child for being what he is. His nature. Its not wrong to have a nature or a feeling. Emotions are just emotions. THey are not bad, or wrong or render us inferior. They are just emotions that come upon us. What we DO With them Determines other causes. However, if you had anger as a baby on your left hip, and were holding sad pity on your right, under both arms, as it were, all day long, you would be weighed down by them if you were to mentally judge them and loathe their implications on you. Rather you’d find them joyous delight (maybe almost) in comparision if you simply accepted their presence, and tuned in. Stop beating yourself up for feeling a certain way. They are trying to speak to you. Go do a lay down meditation body scan and ask “what do you need, what are you trying to tell me”?
I did this recently and it really was amazing. First thing was the soreness bubbled up with puss from my spirit like an oozing blister, in other words i became worse for a few hours, but then i relaxed realizing it was running its course. THere are layers to the onion of peeling back the realizations but its a start.