So basically, the “promise” of a ‘serious ben torah, who is dedicating to klal yisroel, striving for a balanced life,’ who is deep, connected to his rebbeim, focused, with a strong emphasis on personal growth and has quality middos (MY DREAM IN A HUSBAND!!!) comes with a very big price.
It’s not as simple as it seems.
Chaval on the way things have come to today.
I’ve been turned down once or twice because I want to be a teacher (even though I do want to be a qualified, legitimately certified (not only seminary certificate)teacher to teach in all areas of the education field, hoping to even get a masters in education and/or reading) and at this point in my life I personally cannot contribute any more than my part time job salary and my parents offer of shared support. And I’ve also been rejected because I’m not going into any of the higher paying professions like OT, PT, ST. My heart is in teaching. My heart is also in Torah. It’s a funny situation because I’m doing all I can, but apparently it’s not enough.
I am not complaining. I have full trust in Hashem that everything is going to work out just the way it’s meant to. I know there is a guy out there who has all those qualities I’m looking for, and the logistics will work out just fine. I’m just commenting on the sorry state of affairs in the world today.