oy- smile19 i feel for you! i’ve been going thru something similar…so i was close with this girl (and she felt rlly close to me, and told me so many times over, in many diff ways-ex: little gifts, notes, emails, shmoozes…so this wasnt just a one way relationship) and same thing suddenly she wants nothing to do with me- she has major emotional issues (i only noticed after we stopped being friends), but i see her almost every day…every time i see her is like another slap in the face. especially when i see her being so nice and acting so friendly to ppl- it hurts me so much.
now, we became friends a little over 2 yrs ago. stopped being friends last november (2012). i can’t seem to let go. it’s so annoying. i feel the same way- i just want shalom. i don’t have to be her close friend anymore- but she’s not just not talking to me- she stares me down, she’s rude to me (now, remember i just mentioned she’s not talking to me…she’s being very rude in other ways. she won’t say thank you to me if i open the door for her. she won’t open the door for me if she sees me standing outside in the freezing cold weather…a bit childish…)but i still can’t let go!
we both tried talking to each other, we started talking nicely…then a few times later it was just nasty. it’s so annoying. i (not often) sometimes come home in tears if something happened (or didn’t happen) b/t us. and the weird thing is this summer she saw me somewhere (we hadn’t seen each other the whole summer) and she was like “hey yummiest cupcake!!!!! what’s up?? how was ur summer?? what’re you doing this yr??” and all that, with a huge smile on her face- then all of a sudden she’s not talking to me again after that. when i asked her about that she said she spoke to me that way totally unintentionally and i have to stop harassing her (her definition of my asking for an apology for all she’s done to hurt me.)
smile19 i feel so bad for you! wish there was some other way we could get in touch and spk abt this privately, but i guess for now this’ll have to do…
i daven for my ex friend every day still, that she’ll become emotionally healthy very soon and that she should be able to lead a genuinely happy healthy wonderful fulfilling life. talk to Hashem, like someone suggested above. I talk to Him very often, and even if i don’t feel like He’s answering me all the time, it makes me feel His presence so much more in my life in general. good luck and keep me posted…