It sounds like youre really having a hard time. And im very shocked that boys of that age are still physically hurting you even if it isnt too often. When they do that, the best thing to do is to show it doesnt bother you. The same with people commenting about your height.itll be tearing your heart out but at least on the outside pretend that no matter what they do or say, itll have no impact on you.nothings wrong with going to a private place afterwards and crying or punching a pillow or something. Because if it does hurt you, you need to get it out somehow. The trick is not letting everyone catch on. Hopefully, after doing this for a while, theyll give up and end their antics . Apparently your height is really bothering you. True you didnt pick that; genetics did that to you. Its not your fault and you cant do anything to change it. Once you accept yourself as the amazing individual that you are, youll accept that too. Im assuming that height is a big issue by boys but once you get out of yeshiva and everyone starts living their own life, height wont play such a big role anymore. Youll see that iyh youll live the same quality life as those who are taller than you. About the working out… its discouraged because it builds your ego?!?! So go work out! I do every morning and it’s the best thing in the world. Theres nothing that makes you feel so empowered. Its also an awesome way to release stress.
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