Keep climbing,
I dont agree with to be or not to be. Lets face facts:
– you are being bullied by the people around you and no one is helping you deal with it.
– you have no self esteem.
– you have no support system.
– you are blaming the above facts on your appearence which is a very foolish thing to do. There are many people out there that are not models and yet lead very successful lives. Right now, you are stuck in a cycle where people at the cr are trying to help you, but all you’re doing is saying that you DONT need a therapist, you just need Hashem to perform a miracle in which you grow a foot overnight