I am so sorry that you feel that you are not allowed to express yourself when only one of your posts is deleted. It has nothing to do with you or your disabilities. Every person has had some ideas that are okay, and some that aren’t, but it is important just to say to yourself, “I guess that topic isn’t good for klal yisroel right now. Nu, so I will go talk about something else.”
Everything else you wrote has been posted and posters have been very supportive. They care about you and what you have to say. There is no reason for you to cut yourself off from them just because we have moderation on this site. I hope you will reconsider.