I think that what funnybone meant to say is that it’s ok for a teen to think suicidal thoughts sometimes. But when the said teen seems to be clinically depressed, then suicidal thoughts are something to be worried about.
Keepclimbing, I wish I’d know what to say to make you feel better. I wish I could make you an appointment with Hashem, in which He could tell you what you are capable of, and how there is a reason for your height. But I can’t, so I’ll do the next best thing- tell you that Hashem is rooting for You. You’ve got a whole cheerleading team up in Shamayim. Maybe if you internalize that, it would help you? Realize that every action you make, every word you say, even every thought that crosses your mind is precious in Hashem’s eyes.
Stay strong, keep climbing, and keep smiling.