I understand completely when you say that due to certain events you cant really trust.
3 of my “good” friends dropped me this year. In my case as well, I slid a little in terms of yiddishkeit. I felt like if this is how frum people act, whats there to be proud of.
I spent an entire year hating them with every fiber of my being. I hated them for what they did to me and how they made me feel. But you know something? My year was miserable because of it. I missed so many things because I wouldnt go if they were there.
But the minute I began to let go and tried to move on, I became happier. I still have other problems but this was a big one and im so happy its on its way out.
People can be impossible! But you shouldn’t let a certain person hold you back from anything. Believe in your true value and what youre capable of!!
Life has a way of working out, I promise you! You can do it! You arent alone at all! Hopefully everything will work out for you quickly. …