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I totally get you how you feel. I don’t have words for you.
I don’t know if I’m autistic, they tell me I am. But I am mainstreamed and my friends tell me I’m not…
I just get so confused!!! I spend so much effort trying to remember social cues and I’m never EVER good enough for the world I live in. And I’m sick of it. Cuz I’m mainstreamed, I’m expected to act like I’m non-autistic cuz I’m not. But at the same time I am a little, or that’s what they say.
Can we just not call it autistic?
I am socially challenged. I am a regular girl. Maybe just like someone in your school. But I’m different. Sometimes I am too impulsive and don’t think before I talk, and sometimes I forget to see if you are interested or not. Sometimes I am successful and sometimes not.
But don’t judge me by that.
This is my nisayon. Everyone has theirs, and I am working, taking one thing at a time, slowly slowly. It doesn’t help to scream at me to go faster, just like it doesn’t help to scream at the computer to go faster WHEN IT CAN’T!!!!
I am learning, always learning.
I guarantee you, if non-autistic people tried half as hard as I do to make sure that what they did didn’t upset other people or harm them, the world would be alot better off. Please, just remember that I slip up, just like a person with an angry nature slips up and yells, even though they are working on themselves.
There are many types of autism, anyone on the spectrum just a tiny bit is considered autistic when it’s really it just means they are completely normal just have to work harder on social cues and stuff.
Why is the world so cruel, why can’t people realize that we work so hard??????