BTW, it was really hard for me to write this, especially because I am a former poster here, and was a regular one at that. After I stopped posting, lurked for a while, and now I saw this. So here I am, under a different name, months/year(s) later.
I hope no one figures me out, I never could of admitted this under my old SN/UN. I’m only here for this thread, because…well, I had to let people know what is really inside our heads.
There is so much info now in magazines (jewish) about abuse, disorders, addictions.
But none about this!!! None at all!!!!!!