RayofLight- Wow, again I am so so sorry. I did not mean for you to understand that as me expecting you to be a person with special needs. As Syag beautifully wrote, we all have a tough time reading each other, the meaning behind what people say to us.
Again I am so sorry if it hurt you, I was not trying to put you down. I was simply trying to lend you advice on how you can improve self esteem and especially your relationship with your parents.
Chas Veshalom, I would never have intended to say you are not normal. We are all not normal in our own way. I would never disregard your issue and say you are special and need to be treated that way! In the work I do, I attempt to make life as normal as possible for my campers, and the kids I work with, no matter what their ABILITY.
I’d like to highlight the word ability because Ray, no I do not know who you are, I was not aware you were a poster from before, and I am sorry if I am seeming inconsistant with you. But I know, no matter who you are, you have abilities. You do, Hashem gave you them when you were born. Even my camper who could not move anything in his body but his eyes had abilities. He has a personality, feelings and the ability to make people smile and appreciate life, and be a good friend and companion.
You need to take your abilities and seperate them from what you might consider your “disability”. If you are having trouble socially, whether you have ASD or not is irrelevent. You are having a problem that you want adressed. But don’t put your whole persona down. You are an able person, with like you said, a nisayon from Hashem.
My advice to you is to communicate that with your parents (and if you have read my posts in a while back I know how difficult it can be. It took me a year and a half to open up with my parents about a major issue). Please do not take my posts as rhetoric, or ridicule on you Ray, I sincerely care about you and want you to succeed in life. Not because you are special, because you are my Jewish sister who is hurting and wants to find a beam of light.
Please mochel me, I am sorry.