FFBBT- I am so happy for you that you have come to these conclsuions yourself in your own time. I am inspirsed by you and your growth experiance. As someone who is a little older than you, but in a similar position (with parents who are more modern etc) I respect all the challenges you are going through. Keep strong and remember that everything you have done to get to the point you are at now is incredible and Hashem is so proud of you. Even though it seems as though you are going through a lot of hard times all at once, I know they will all iron out. It always does!
Thank you for the update and a freilichin purim to you! keep inspiring others around you!