So in my particular situation, I had a mental barrier that I ended up getting an opportunity BH to plow through over the past five months. The issue I had before decided to confront it was that even though I knew what my hashkafa was at the time, I feared it. Also, generally speaking (as a BT who has been involved over my journey with at least seven kiruv organizations of all types of hashkafos ranging from modern orthodox to modern yeshivish to greasy yeshivish to chassidish influence and chassidish, I have noticed that in most cases, kiruv professionals prefer to direct BTs to the left. Their reasoning is typically b/c going very far to the right too quickly can make one go completely off the derech.
An extreme case would be someone who was in ncsy for five months and decided month four to start keeping shabbos three months later it was august and he decided to switch to a yeshiva that did not allow students to have cell phones. I would be shocked if such a bochur did not end up going off the derech.
My case is one in which although I had a significant Jewish affiliation that was not Orthodox before becoming frum, I took it very “slowly”. I knew within a year after starting to keep shabbos what my general conceptual direction was going to be even though I couldn’t put it into words. It took me a very long time to identify with words the hashkafa I need, but then the issue was that I needed to take action but something prevented me from doing that.