No moish, most people don’t look at “guys like you” as wimps. That’s because most of us struggle with the same feelings that you have. Some of us more than others. Some of us constantly. And the only reason why we’re still “frummies” is because we hash it out, whether it be with people or on our own (obviously with people is better).
Now if you told me that you didn’t believe in God, then I’d call you a wimp. That’s a cop-out to deal with cognitive dissonance. But if you know what’s right and acknowledge it, that takes guts, especially when you have no interest in doing what that admission means you have to do. We all do wrong things. It’s just a question of minimizing it.