moish- you really don’t have to listen to anything I say if you don’t WANT to. Maybe what I said was stupid- that’s for you to judge and decide
As to getting my hopes high- that’s where you’ve got it all wrong. We don’t suddenly think “oooh, yes. Look how quickly THAT worked! Now let’s try the next scheme.” I will say this again- you are not “buying” anything cuz we aint sellin anything! THIS IS FOR YOURSELF, for you to decide and take appropriate action.
You davened at 9… good! yes- I’m ecstatic! For that one action alone! I’m not jumping to extremes or looking at the end of the road. I’m looking at this morning and I’m HAPPY. That’s all- one step at a time. And if you don’t do it tomorrow morning- that’s ok (I think).
You should know, taking on davening and getting up early is huge and not advisable to do at one shot. Again- try something small that won’t make such a drastic difference to what you’re basically used to doing. Take this one thing and do it completely, correctly and with meaning.
As to whom I’m ecstatic for: I guess I should be excited for Hashem but I’m not on that level yet. I’m mainly excited for you because you took a step in the right direction and that’s all I’ve wanted to hear since this all started
and moish- you drag the koiychas outta me!